Sometimes we just have to let things go

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. Checking off everything 22q related we were stumped on what to do for Bellas leg pains that kept her screaming at night. We were left wondering what do we do next. We took her to a pain specialist and not just any pain specialist but a doctor who specializes in locating pain and diagnosing pain. Within 10 minutes the doctor was able to figure out what we never could.  I have been learning more and more about what exactly cerebral palsy looks like. I knew the physical forms of cp you know people who are in wheel chairs or who use a cane but Bella uses neither of those. Infact if I did not tell you Bella had 22q or cp you would not have a clue anything went wrong at birth with her.

The invisible illness number 2 my daughter has. I do not worry about the cause because of how high risk and complicated my pregnancy was with her I am going to assume it was with that aspects. I had to learn to let some of my questions go and that we are doing all we can and have done for Bella

I have been told to help her breath through the pain those spasms and tears I watch her cry and wimper at night and we have her on backflen we also do physical therapy every Tuesday to address the pain and find different ways to try and relax the spasms.

I work with her spasms and knots and massage her but she does the hard part the deep breathing the crying and the letting out pain crys and the sighs in her face and the look of pain when I find that spot that knot is lodge into. The mini massage sessions last way into the night sometimes at 2 am I am woken up in her crys for me to help comfort her and rub her legs.

  If I had not gone through therapy I would not have been able to help my daughter with mindfulness and breathing relaxing techniques that seem to help keep her calm while I rub out knots and massage her legs and bottoms of her feet. I have it down to a science.

Bella can predict when we have storms and when it going to be super cold outside by the severity of her pain levels. The levels of inflamation in her blood labs are within normal limits. This time of year is the hardest and she been flying though with ease because of the physical therapy stretching and massaging we do every Tuesday. She misses out on so much school for medical needed appointments and if she didn’t have me fighting for her she would not do as well as she is doing. I am reminded why I write these blog post. I know there are so many other children who also have pain in their legs and 22q. The pains and leg spasms kids with cp are different then the pains that kids with 22q get. I know the difference I see it daily we tried the 22q treatments.

Bella teaches me that sometimes you just have to pray and breath though the pain no matter how tough life seems to get Bella will push through the pain. This week it was difficult she started swimming and had panic attacks because of her leg shaking getting on the ladder and into the pool she overcame it and actually got in the water which I am so glad to hear she is enjoying looking forward to swimming now. I know that when she is in the water it will help with her legs to stretch out her muscles and help her feel better.

Bella also had to miss two days of school she was sent home and had to miss out do to a temp of 100 the school sends kids home with a temp that high. I had to have her rest and recover and she is pushing through like a trooper back at school just 24 hours after her temp excited to enjoy swimming.

We have to sometimes breath though the hard stuff to get to the good fun parts of life. That’s what Bella teaches me and I am so thankful I get to be her mom and watch her grow and develop and mature into a lovely funny smart kind caring person she is. I am so looking forward to the rest of this year and all she will accomplish.

I am so thankful the biggest lesson Bella has shown me is sometimes we just have to push through the pains of life and move on with a smile on our face . Bella oven come her fear of getting into the poo she even did so right after recovering form that temp and completed her swimming test and is looking forward to swimming again this summer.

Sometimes we just have to let things go and not get worked up over other people's fears and concerns to make room for the positive things in life.

Lettings things go is now the thing I am trying more often.

I challange you to let some things go! List below in the comments what are some fears and concerns you need to let go of?

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